Here we Go

Hello bloggin world!!!!!!

I want to give a BIG thanks to Ang for helping me get this started. Ang your awesome, encouraging and a great inspiration to all that come to know you. I am truly blessed to know you and one day we WILL meet face to face. For everyone that dont know .... I have known Ang via email group for seven plus years and she as well as the others in the group are awesomely wonderful!!!!!!

Now on to a bit about me!!!!

I just turned the BIG 40 two months ago and am honestly LOVIN it :)

I live in central Texas with the most amazing man in the world. To make a long story short I met my beloved online six years ago this August we talked via online and phone for six months then he asked me to move here (I lived in the cold northern state of Michigan) So being single and no kids I packed up my little car and drove 21 hours straight arriving here on March 1st 2003. Let me tell you one thing God works maricles in our lives if we just let him :)

So here I am in the big state of Texas were summers are hotter then hattie and I will never get use to that :) My beloved and I married on March 1st 2005 he is the most amazing person I know. .... some moments I would love to squeeze his head off his shoulders and other moments I would love to just love him forever LOL.... We have an awesome 4 year old son that is so amazing and wonderful :) I am truly blessed........He keeps me on my toes and them two men are the reason I strive to climb the mountains life sometimes puts up for us .... After movin here I truly found what it was I wanted to do when I grew up LOL with the support of my beloved I started college four years ago.... Twenty years ago I tried going into the medical field but could not handle it. I think God works in our lives sometimes in HIS time ....if you know what I mean..... So when I started college I decided I wanted to give the medical field another chance and low and behold I now hold a certificate in phlebotomy and have been working for almost two years at one of the local hospitals as a phlebotomist (vampire) and I love it. I am very much a people person and to know I can make a differance and help someone when they are sick or in need of medical care is an awesome feeling for me. I am in school for Respiratory Therapy also. I have 1 1/2 years left of college to get my degree in that.... and I think after that I will go on to get my RN degree then maybe I will be done with school but we shall wait and see!!



Last year was a VERY rough year for us medically. In November of 2006 we last a baby due to miscarriage at 14 weeks along .... then I started having women problems that took my oxygenated blood down to 7.1 (normal is 12 to 14 for women) I was close to needing a transfusion.. in May of 2007 I had a biopsy and ultra sounds done everything saying I just needed a D and C so we scheduled that for August 3rd 2007 (my beloveds 35th bday) going in we though I would be coming home that afternoon (outpaitient surgery) God works in Great mysterious ways ...... My beloved was gonna go and do some business things then come back and pick me up but for some reason he stayed and waited instead.... about a half hour after I left to go to surgery a nurse came running down to the room and had my beloved sign a paper so they could do a emergancy partial hystorectomy things did not go as planned and I was losing to much blood. Like I said God works in great ways Beloved signed the papers and I woke up in recovery about three hours later. When I finally got up stairs to a room it was HELL all I could do was cry cause this was NOT suppose to go this way ....... Beloved was crying too when he first seen me ....he said he was sorry for having to make a choice like that for me but he was so happy I was ok and alive :) He is truly a God send let me tell you. Well four days later I got to come home.... and let me tell you staying in the hospital 4 days is LONG....LONG :) then shortly after I was home the doctor called to tell me the pathology report came back and they found cancer. I cried and cried and cried and the doctor was so wonderful (I was home alone Beloved at the pharmacy getting my meds) Dr said ok Dawn we will get through this together.... one step at a time :)

Once again GOD is wonderful..... we met with an oncologist about a week later and had a Cat Scan every thing came back showing NOTHING is there....... but with the type of cancer (mixed mullerian sarcoma) stage 1 grade 3 we decided to do radiation therapy .... so for 6 weeks monday through friday I would go for my 10 minute treatment of radiation at the oncology center here in town. Let me tell ya by week 4 I was still strong and holding on but I want so to let go cause it was starting to NOT feel good ...... I was working full time in school fulltime and doing radiation and havin my house to tend too also. But with God, my beloved, my boy and my friends and family I got through it .......As of now I am going back for follow up check ups. I have given it over to God and decided to live my life. Going back to the oncologist is something I will live with forever now but that is ok cause I am alive and living and "life is what I make it"



OK OK enough of the book of ME

I wanted to do this blog to come here and journal, talk just put things down. I dont know if anything I say will help any one else or not but I do know it will help me through my journey in this wonderful life. So many of us take life for granite thinking there is always tomorrow. But I have learned through trials and just being honest with myself that today is all we really have... tomorrow is NEVER guaranteed .... and each of us are the master of our own destiny. I spent along time in my life blaming others for everything that happend bad in my life..... but life is truly what I MAKE IT :) Have a wonderful day and Know that GOD is love and God is good....