Day One of the Rest of My Life

Have you ever been stuck?? Just cant seem to move even though you know what to do and how to do it. Have you ever wanted something so much but kept failing at getting it right?? Have you ever thought to yourself that it is "more" then weight that you need to deal with and that is what you keep running from?? That if you dug deep and dealt with the matters laying beyond the fat that you would actually stop failing?? Well I am on Day One of the Rest of My Life..... I need to dig deep and deal with the whys and the woos
Today I thought I was gonna go nuts. See I am one of the lucky people that has in-laws (mother in law especially) that dont really like me :( and I got to take my mother in law to the doctors today...... I dropped her off and told her to call me when she was ready to go...figuring ok maybe 45 minutes tops right ?? LOL NOT more like 1 1/2 hours later she was done. But when I dropped her off I went to the park near by and walked 1.5 miles..... was trying for 2 miles and could have done it but the temp was already up to 96F and I have no idea how high the heat index was..... but after 1.5 miles I was feeling drained, sucked up of my energy...... I believe this was more from the heat then it was the walking itself...... So I made it back to the doctors office and sat for a 1/2 hour for my mother in law to finish with her appoinment. She has to go back next monday and LOL did not even ask me what my schedule was just said 1pm is good ...I was like mmmmm is one of your daughters bringing you ...cause I leave at 1pm for work.... she was like well I thought you could change your day off..... WHAT HELL NO change your appointment (I did not tell her HELL NO but believe me I wanted too) any ways now I have to take her on monday at 10:30 .... grrrrrrr then we stopped by my house she said she wanted to see my hubby and see how he was feeling since he had surgery monday and she has not even bothered to call and see how it went :( Well she came in and my boy was trying to talk to her but all she was doing was looking around my living room and kitchen to see how I keep house :( .... I got hubby his medicine and made him a sandwhich and got my son some lunch (it is noon by now) on our way out the door I asked Mother in law did you see his knee and she said oh well I will look at it next time..... I need you to take me to get my hair cut and get my medicine filled. GRRRRRRRR I was just gonna drop her off at her apartment and come home and relax.....but being the nice person I am I took her to do what she needed and thank goodness when at 2 pm I could FINALLY drop her off at home and come home to relax and enjoy a bit of my day off. But I did get a 1.5 mile walk out of all this LOL
my food has been crude today
water has been great 6 bottles :)
and I am ready to rock tomorrow and get my eating back under control
So if you have read this far sorry about complaining and thanks for reading
Keep On Keepin On
This IS OUR YEAR